It's so mind numbingly boring I can't stand it. I put off going every day, so I end up there late. part of me doesn't want to leave tho' because it really is an easy job to do. I think I will be OK with something more demanding, but I'm not 100% sure.

I've been immersing myself in the blogs of adults who were adopted trans-racially. It's really helping me to understand what to do, and not do, if we adopt. On the balance, I'm coming to the conlcusion that it is an okay thing. Not a great thing. A great thing would be for those children to never have been surrendered, or at least to have been sent to live with extended family. The next greatest thing would have been for them to at least have been adopted in China.

International adoption is a few down on the list on good things that can happen to a child. I guess my next point of enquiry is comparing adoption to the child staying in the orphanage. Some of the orphanages are actually quite good, and some of the kids are fostered out, which is really good. However, some of the orphanages are bad and some of the foster parents are only doing it for the money.

Are adoptive parents worth losing your culture and language for?

I don't know.